I used to struggle with depression a lot. I used to feel like nobody loved me, that nobody cared, and that what I did didn't matter. Hardly anybody noticed that I was depressed. I guess I would just cover it up with a fake smile through my hardest times. Only a few people noticed a change in me. I wish I could say it was some of my closest friends but it wasn't. They were friends that didn't know me very well. They would always ask me if anything was wrong. If I was doing alright. I would lie, of course, and just shrug it off and say I was fine and that nothing was the matter. I knew they didn't believe me.
I was so stupid. I allowed Satan to convince me that nobody cared. All the time friends were asking about me. That alone meant that they cared. But of course I couldn't see that. Finally, I don't know how it happened, but i realized that no matter what happens God will always care about me. He will always love me. He always has a plan for me. No matter how crazy my life gets. And even when I don't feel like my friends or family love me, He's always going to be here for me. It's just a matter of me acknowledging Him and allowing Him to console me. I just have to run to Him and everything will be OK no matter what the circumstance is. So now, whenever I feel down on myself and when I feel very alone I pray, and remember this song-
"Jesus laid down His life to die for me, When I was lost in sins dark night. Though I did not deserve this gift so free, each child is special in His sight.
I'm special to Jesus, there's no one else like me. I wouldn't trade places with anyone else, I'm special you see. God has prepared a task, He wants me to do. I'm special, I'm special to my Lord.
I may be rich, I may be very poor, still I am special just the same. Christ hears each knock I make on Heavens door. He hears each time I call his name.
I'm special to Jesus, there's no one else like me. I wouldn't trade places with anyone else, I'm special you see. God has prepared a task, He wants me to do. I'm special, I'm special to my Lord. I'm special, I'm special to my Lord."
It is always a wonderful help to me, because it reminds me that no matter how many times I fall, and no matter how many times I may stumble off of the path that God wants me to be on He always cares.
Hebrews 13:5- Let your conversation be without covetousness and be content with such things as yea have: for He hath said, I will never leave thee nor forsake thee.
If you have any personal questions or comments feel free to email me at
alife4christ.sarah@gmail.com
God Bless! :)
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